RUDIMENTS

RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,034 (save me a seat then, ok?) It has always been, for me, as if I get pictures. From my mind, they are produced in response to most anything. It's a little strange, and I can never truly clarify or vouch for them, or their truthfulness or perhaps just the way they 'suggest' things. I later find out, but acclaiming the original image is difficult because I can never really put them side by side  -  one being, of course, image, and the other, real. And there have been other times when I've been able to, and the results were wrong. Like one time, many years back, before any of my NY stuff started, a friend of mine, another kid, with a penchant for blowhard status, begins describing to me the walkway section of the Brooklyn Bridge; how it runs up, beneath the cables and all that great vista and commensurate expanse and views. And meanwhile I'm building this 'picture' from what h...

RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,033 (oh dad, poor dad, mama's hung you in the closet and I'm feeling so bad) I still find myself getting  mad about all sorts of things, and it's mostly, apparently, the kind of things others are not much phased by. I used to fight back, and push, but now I guess I just let it go. The world is too much for  me, all the chigger-bastards are already in control, and  there's not much else I can do. Everyone I used to know is starting to die off. In and of itself tht's not fun, but it only gets worse. It's a quite curious moment when you come to this  -  let me  explain: When all the people you currently 'know,' like on a weekly basis, let's say, in the everyday course of things, are easily outnumbered by the same sort of people, once living, who have now died off. As a person  -  one singular human being  -  you don't really 'know' when that moment hits, but event...

RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,032 (freshet) There's a lot of prescience in science. I always thought that to be pretty funny, even though a scientist would probably dispute me and go on saying how the whole idea of 'Science' is in not knowing things beforehand, and thus making the conjectures and the line experiments by which to prove premises. I won't argue the point; the scientist would probably be right. By Science's terms. Mine are different. It always seemed to me that the 'future' is always already out there, in front of it, and that we just walk into it; it having already been constructed for and by us by the manner of assumptions and things we do. The trick of the best people is in knowing it beforehand. That's where the big hump of prescience is. Fancy names for other things: necromancy, fortune telling, tarot cards, etc. Go see the Gypsy lady; she'll tell you gladly. - Life unfolds its own b...

RUDIMENTS, pt. 1031 (dual moments in an old, single sun) There's never any moment like one's first realization that what you first thought was, wasn't  really. It can be likened to a film over a baby's eyes. When I was young boy, maybe 8 or 9, just about the time of the train  wreck, my mother started having other kids. Before that it had just been me and my sister, who was maybe 15 months younger than me. Still is, actually (that's a joke, thrown in for comic relief because I don't want you to think I'm going all dramatic now). So new little babies began showing  up when she and I were already 8 and 7. New vistas, for sure.  I really didn't pay that much  attention to it, being train-wrecked and all at first  -  which kind of had me preoccupied some. One of the oddest things I remember was being told of how little infants grow. One was about how to hold them  -  the neck always had t...